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Front Gates at the Home of Hope

We’ve been in contact or followed the accounts of several people who visit the Home of Hope Orphanage in Kigali, Rwanda where our daughter, most certainly, now resides. At the end of this post is an account of one of these women who has been to visit recently.

As we draw closer to the day when we will get our turn to go, see, and hold our new daughter for the first time it seems increasingly difficult emotionally to read these accounts. Perhaps my girl is one of these little ones running to the gate to meet the visitors, hoping that she will be chosen to get held, touched, and loved, even if it’s just for a little while?

I was thinking again today how much our human experience is so akin to that of the orphan child. So many of us are lonely and desperate for love. We may have lost many precious things in life. People, and the events of life, come and go. But they are all short lived comforts. We run from one person to another, or some new affection, hoping they will be the one to love us forever, or to satisfy the emptiness in our hearts. But they never stay, and their affection always runs dry.

Then one day we hear the good news. You have a father… There is someone who has chosen you, promised they will love you forever, and never leave you alone again. And one day soon, he will come to get you to take you home.

I can only imagine the hope that must spring to life in the heart of a orphaned child when the news that they have been adopted comes to them. Actually, I can imagine it, because I know that kind of hope myself. When I feel the weight of the deep sorrows of life, my heart never despairs. I know I have a Father who loves me forever, has adopted me as his own, and it’s certain that one day soon He’s coming.

I’m extremely grateful for the sisters, volunteers, and visitors who give all the love, effort, and prayer they can to serving these orphans at the Home of Hope. The children literally have no one else; all of them have no family that can be found. Even though the workers may be overwhelmed with the amount of work, the situation there is so much better than what it is for many orphans around the world.

Here is the account of “Amy”, who was a recent visitor to “our” orphanage. It may be she has given some of the precious little direct love and attention my daughter has ever known. I’m very grateful for her offering of love.

There are some moments in life where I feel so overwhelmed by an experience that I have a hard time putting it into words. I struggle to grasp all that it meant to me or all that I saw. Perhaps it’s due to my visual nature and the fact that I feel more content telling my story through pictures than I do with words. However, you’ll have to bare with me as I try to describe my experiences at the Home of Hope orphanage in Kigali, since I was unable to take any pictures inside the orphanage.

I thought I felt prepared before I entered the blue gates at the Home of Hope. Several families from my church have adopted children from the orphanage and they’ve described to me first hand the conditions these children live in. But it’s one thing to hear it and another to see it yourself. We came in the afternoon, when the orphanage allows visitors to come play with the children or rock the little babies. Jana and Keli go on a regular basis to give the littlest ones massages, since they are mostly lying flat on their backs in their cribs all day long and suffer from stiffness and weak muscles. They also just need to be held and feel the touch of an actual person. It’s not that the nurses do not hold them, but they are just overwhelmed. There are so many babies and only few workers to attend to their needs. It’s impossible for each baby to receive the love and attention that they truly need.

The first time we came, we were bombarded by dozens of toddlers when we entered the gate. They came rushing up to us, all wanting to be held or touched. It was both adorable and heartbreaking at the same time. Here were these beautiful, precious children, all just wanting to be loved and shown attention. How could we pass them by to go hold the infants? I felt so torn. I wanted to love on each little kid in the orphanage, but we only were allowed to visit for one hour. But I couldn’t resist their sweet, smiling faces so I picked up one child and more of them followed us inside. I eventually had to take the little guy back outside, because they were not allowed to come into the room with the infants. As I walked him back to the door, he started crying and my heart started ripping to shreds. I felt like the worst person in the world. But I knew that the babies were all in the other room needing just as much attention. There’s just so many needs to be met and I already felt overwhelmed by it after being there less than 10 minutes.

They took us to a room with many cribs all lined up side by side. The first thing you notice when you enter is the smell. It’s not quite like stepping into an outhouse but it’s pretty close. Most of the children have on cloth diapers but they’re not changed often enough. With 20 or so babies to a room, it’s going to leave a smell. At the time we entered they were feeding the older babies and had them all either on the floor or in 2 larger cribs to the side of the room. Dinner consisted of bananas mashed up with eggs. Not exactly appealing to me but the babies didn’t seem to care. They all just wanted to be fed. We waited for the nurses to bring us the littlest ones to have massages but held a few of the older ones until they did. I noticed that most all of them had flat heads and bald spots on the back of their heads. They are so accustomed to lying on their backs that their heads have conformed to that shape. Some of them had herniated belly buttons or distended stomachs due to malnourishment. The first little one they gave me was crying when they gave him to me. However, after just holding him close to me for a bit, he calmed down and became at ease with me. He wasn’t eager for me to put him down after that when I tried to lay him on the table to massage his arms and legs and such. So I picked him back up and just held him until he fell asleep in my arms. It was the most precious feeling ever to know that I calmed this little guy down and he felt content enough to fall asleep as I held him. It gave my heart some peace.

Most of these children will not be adopted. The girls might grow up and come back to work there as a nurse, like many of the women working in the orphanage now. The men will be given a small plot of land to tend to once they reach a certain age. They’ll have little education and little hope for a bright future. I felt this great desire to adopt 10 of them on the spot, but of course that was not possible, especially since right now adoptions are temporarily closed in Rwanda. I came back feeling mentally and emotionally exhausted from the first experience but I knew I had to go back again while I was there. I wish I could have gone back every day, but that wasn’t possible. The second experience felt even more overwhelming than the first, as there was one moment where about 5-10 of the babies were all crying and I just didn’t know who to hold and what to do. I can’t imagine how the workers must feel on a daily basis.

I know that now, as I’m back in the states, all I can really do for these children is pray for them. I pray that their physical and emotional needs will be met. I pray they will all find a home and a family who will love and care for them. I pray they will grow up strong and receive a good education. I’m thankful for people like Jana and Keli who go there on a regular basis and do what they can to help. I’m thankful for all the families I know who have opened their homes and their hearts to adopt children from orphanages all around the world. I have a great respect and admiration for all of you. In all of this, I have to believe that God is working. It only took me a fraction of a second to fall in love with these children, but I know that God loved them before anyone else and will always love them. I put my hope in His love.

I’ll never forget Home of Hope. I left a piece of my heart there.


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Some of the greatest prophets of our day are those from whose mouths we may never hear a word of “prophecy”.

The other day a young guy was asking me “what advice would you give to a young Christian who wanted to distinguish himself; to have a unique life for God”? Without a lot of thought, I just said “get continually in the presence of God through prayer,  and when He speaks direction to you, abandon all else and do it with all your heart and determination”.

I don’t know if this was “wisdom of the ages” or not, but my point to him was this – that there are millions of believers (myself included) who hear and know the word of the Lord, speak the word of the Lord, and wax poetic about the Spirit’s message of the hour to the people of God. But I’ve known very very few who’ve truly abandoned everything for the sake of the calling of God on their lives.

Much like in the life of the prophet Hosea, God is raising up those in these days who will hear “what the spirit is saying to the churches” and whose lives will personify the word of the Lord in this hour as a prophetic standard to the people.

What a multiplied impact men of God like Randy Alcorn, Rick Warren, Mike Bickle, or Francis Chan have had as they have not only spoken the word of the Lord but embodied it. They preach a message of living sacrificially, ministering to the poor, living free from the spirits or our culture, and prayer, and they have each made great sacrifices to stay faithful that message. Each one would be very wealthy through their book sales alone, but they’ve each chosen to live lifestyles of “unnecessary” modesty, and given their wealth away. They’ve each given up many opportunities, positions, and comforts. Even when it wasn’t popular with others or in their own self-interest, they denied themselves what was rightfully theirs because God had spoken clearly and they were willing to give up everything in order to stay faithful “to the heavenly vision” and to use whatever God gave them to further that cause. It is because of this radical, many times painful, life of abandonment that God has used them each in significant ways.

Just as God is calling individuals to live such prophetic lifestyles, He is calling, preparing, and purifying a church that will stand in this hour of history as a prophetic witness to the nations.

In a time when even believers are obsessed with their own comfort, wealth, and significance, God is raising up a church who will live sacrificially and humbly, preferring the needs of others over meeting their own. In a time when having obscenely busy schedules makes one “important” and “productive”, God is raising up a church who know that only time in His presence through prayer will produce any lasting fruit in our lives.  In these days when murdering your own unborn child is considered a “right” or even an “act of love”, and poverty, war, and disease leave the world’s landscape littered with orphans, God is calling a people out who will lay their lives down to “defend the cause of the fatherless” through adoption and orphan care. And in a world that idolizes men of temporal fame and power, God is fashioning for Himself a people who have their hearts fixed solely on His soon coming kingdom that will rule the nations in righteousness.

I’ll tell you what, it’s a whole lot easier to be a church that is filled with people speaking and receiving “prophetic words” than it is to be a people who will live as prophets. Doing that will cost us our lives.

And calling the crowd to him with his disciples, he said to them, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake and the gospel’s will save it. For what does it profit a man to gain the whole world and forfeit his soul? For what can a man give in return for his soul? For whoever is ashamed of me and of my words in this adulterous and sinful generation, of him will the Son of Man also be ashamed when he comes in the glory of his Father with the holy angels.” Mark 8:34-38

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Abortion Funding

Despite the best efforts of some, there was no way to stop some of the money from the new Health Care legislation from going to abortion funding. This video does a decent job of demonstrating how that happens. I benefited positively from a number of facets of this new legislation, in particular the extension and modifications to the adoption tax credit. But it makes no sense to spend a few million to help save a few thousand kids, all the while spending millions more to murder thousands of others every day.

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I remember once, when my daughter Delaney was little, she came around while I was watching some sermon online and asked “whatcha doing?”. From out of the kitchen my wife’s voice came to inform her “Daddy loves his preachers!”

It’s true. Daddy does like his preachers very much. One of my many favorites is Corey Russell. In part, I love Corey because he always seems on the verge of coming completely unhinged. You know, like you’re never sure if at any moment he might fall down convulsing, or have an eyeball pop out.

But seriously, Corey hears the Spirit of God and presents what he hears with unapologetic charismatic passion. He’s always stirring, and I when I hear him I know I do not have the option to be complacent or simply be a “hearer, not a doer” of the word (James 1:23-25). Corey preached a barn-burner at IHOPs Prayer & Prophetic conference last week (video below).

One of our greatest needs at this hour is the ability to “hear”. The prophets, Jesus & the Apostles all say it over and over: “Hear”, “hear oh heavens”, “hear O Israel”, “hear you elders”, “let him who has ears hear”, “let him who has ears hear what the spirit is saying”, “faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word”, and on and on. In a generation over-saturated with media, distraction, conflicting messages in the church, and dysfunctional families, we need more than ever to know the Word, and through fasting and prayer hear what the Spirit is saying to us in this hour. Without it we will continue in confusion, having no prophetic message or voice in the church.

The prophet Malachi prophesies at the close of the Old Testament:

“Behold, I will send you Elijah the prophet before the great and awesome day of the LORD comes. And he will turn the hearts of fathers to their children and the hearts of children to their fathers, lest I come and strike the land with a decree of utter destruction.” Malachi 4:5-6

In the book of Malachi there are several significant areas highlighted where the nation is in sin and chaos – the priesthood, marriages, and finances. Sound familiar? God’s prescription for this is to send the spirit of Elijah. This He does at the opening of the New Testament when John the baptist comes in that Spirit of Elijah (Luke 1:16-17).

In our generation we find ourselves in similar straights to Israel in days of Elijah, Malachi, and John the Baptist. The prophecy of Malachi 4 tells us that in the last days, he will again send “the spirit of Elijah”. I believe it is this spirit of Elijah that is being manifested in our day through the movements of adoption and prayer.

There are some distinguishing characteristics of Elijah’s ministry that are key to this “spirit”.

Elijah came when Israel was at rock bottom. He appears somewhat suddenly from what seems like obscurity. He comes to bring a clear demarcation by confronting the idolatry of king Ahab and the prophets of Baal. He is confrontational.

And Elijah came near to all the people and said, “How long will you go limping between two different opinions? If the LORD is God, follow him; but if Baal, then follow him.” 1Kings 18:21

He is a man with power in prayer, who through his prayers, shuts the heavens so it does not rain. Then again through prayer opens up the heavens with rain. His ability to hear the Lord in his spirit is so sharp that he speaks of things yet to come as thought they already are (the coming rains while the drought still continues):

And Elijah said to Ahab, “Go up, eat and drink, for there is a sound of the rushing of rain.” 1Kings 18:41

Through his ministry Elijah brings life to the dead child. He gives us a typological picture of the restoration of children to their parents through laying down our lives and contending in prayer. As Elijah stays in the house of the widow of Zeraphath her son dies. Elijah stretches himself out over the son and pleads with the Lord, and then returns him to her alive:

Then he stretched himself upon the child three times and cried to the LORD, “O LORD my God, let this child’s life come into him again.” And the LORD listened to the voice of Elijah. And the life of the child came into him again, and he revived. And Elijah took the child and brought him down from the upper chamber into the house and delivered him to his mother. And Elijah said, “See, your son lives.” 1 Kings 17:21-23

We find ourselves, as Malachi did, in a time when there is confusion among believers and chaos in our marriages and finances.  It is the Spirit of Elijah that will come to restore.

On the mount of transfiguration Jesus tells the disciples:

And they asked him, “Why do the scribes say that first Elijah must come?” And he said to them, “Elijah does come first to restore all things.

It is likely no coincidence that after Elijah appears to him on the mount of transfiguration, Jesus is confronted by a disheartening scene as he comes down the mountain. A crowd is gathered and a man is pleading for help in delivering his son from a demon that has rendered him deaf and mute. The people, the religious leaders, and the disciples are unable to bring deliverance. Jesus  chastises them for their unbelief (the root of the problem) and instructs them that it’s only by fasting and prayer that these spirits can be cast out (and thus the mute boy receive his voice). We must heed these instructions in our day and cry out for help from the Lord as this boy’s father did if we are to experience victory over the work of these spirits in our children as well.

And Jesus said to him, “‘If you can’! All things are possible for one who believes.”Immediately the father of the child cried out and said, “I believe; help my unbelief!” And when Jesus saw that a crowd came running together, he rebuked the unclean spirit, saying to it, “You mute and deaf spirit, I command you, come out of him and never enter him again.” And after crying out and convulsing him terribly, it came out, and the boy was like a corpse, so that most of them said, “He is dead.” But Jesus took him by the hand and lifted him up, and he arose. And when he had entered the house, his disciples asked him privately, “Why could we not cast it out?” And he said to them, “This kind cannot be driven out by anything but prayer and fasting.” Mark 9:23-29

We need to once again contend through fasting and prayer for the spirit of Elijah among us that can confront evil spirits and minister life to a fatherless and mute generation. We need to “hear what the spirit is saying to the churches” in this hour. If we do not “hear” and “stretch ourselves out” as Elijah did, there will be no clarity or prophetic voice in the coming generation, and no returning of the hearts of children and parents to one another.

Thanks for the message, Corey. The real thing is better than my summary (sermon starts at 1hr 16):

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These videos made by an adoptive family had me laughing out loud at a couple of spots. They are based on actual conversations they have regularly with people at work and out in public. The videos were made on xtranormal.com where you can make your own little animated videos. Too Funny.

While I can’t really relate as yet to some of these conversations, I’ve had a few awkward homeschooling conversations. Homeschooling hasn’t totally made it’s way into the mainstream culture yet, but is increasingly so.

I often forget that kids are in school during the day and that it is a little odd to some when I have the kids out with me. We took Delaney out for lunch on her birthday and I was totally surprised when the waitress saw we were having a birthday meal and she said “Cool! Did you take them out of school for the day?” I thought to myself, “oh yeah, this isn’t normal”. So we responded, “no, she does home school”. The waitress just said “Ohhhhh”. I kind of expected the “ohhhh” to followed by “cool”, or “oh, sure”. Nope, just a trailing “ohhhhhhh”. You could tell she didn’t really know what to say (as though she’d just found out we were taking our daughter out for lunch because daddy just got out of prison or something). It was a little awkward. Can’t blame her though, people just don’t know what to think, especially when so many of the stereotypes are still true.

Why I Can’t Make Mommy Friends – The Big Family Edition
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The Vasectomy

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This afternoon I was driving around doing some of the many little errands I need to run every week. As I was making my way around my mind turned to last Saturday evening when we had the pleasure of hearing Randy Bohlender, a leader in what is being called “the adoption movement”, speak at a forum event we hosted at Bethany Church. There’s many things that stand out in my mind from the evening, but one thought in particular lingers with me.

Children have become an inconvenience to modern society. Back in the days of agrarian living, children were necessary for survival, sharing the work, and passing on the family name. But now, we don’t really need them. Or, at least we think we don’t. Nowadays children get in the way of our upwardly mobile lifestyles. They’re costly, time consuming, and horribly inconvenient. Large seasons of our lives and many of our dreams have to be put on hold while we’re forced to spend our time rearing the little ones. They eat up our resources and require sacrifice of all shapes and sizes.

I was reading my community paper today and glanced through an article on new programs and funding coming online to help curb teen pregnancy in our city. Most certainly we need to teach teens how to be responsible and wait to have children, but now that has turned into sending the message (literally): “if you have kids, your life is over”. We enculturate our kids into a life of self-centeredness. Got pregnant? You need to abort your baby because otherwise “your life is over”. “It’s your life or theirs. You choose…”

There are many women (some who I heard testify at a crisis pregnancy center fundraiser last night) who would never have imagined they were capable of murdering their children until they became pregnant and were faced with what they thought was their only option in a society that seemed to have no sympathy for their struggle with the idea of abortion. “It’s your life or theirs” they are told. Certainly no one told them about the years of guilt, shame, and pain they would carry as a result of their decision to kill.

Of course, this all makes perfect sense if you’re an atheist and you don’t believe there is any afterlife, or a God who rewards the righteous and punishes the wicked. Then it makes perfect sense to live your life for your own short term gain and satisfaction, even at the cost of the life of another. However, it’s sad that even believers have bought into the convenience and self-service of modern life. If it wasn’t for the higher birth rate of Hispanics, Christian families would become an endangered species in two generations. Our birth rate, like many other western groups and nations, is below a culturally sustainable level. Having three children is pushing the acceptable level, and beyond that, (as Randy said on Saturday) it’s “welcome to the freak show”. Having that many children is anathema to the modern mind. It mostly wins you sideways glances and pity.

For many believers, we limit the number of our children for what seems like good reasoning. We want to be financially responsible, etc. However, I think if we were really honest and took time to dig beneath the surface we would find the true motivations more often based in the desire to maintain our comfortable lifestyles and pursue our careers, ministries, and securing our own significance in the eyes of the world. I’m not saying everyone needs to have a huge family, I’m just saying we need to reexamine the culture we are creating and make sure we’re looking to God for His opinion first before just going with whatever we’ve “comfortable” with.

Russell Crowe famously said to his men in the opening scenes of “Gladiator”,  “Men, the decisions we make in this life echo into eternity”. Not only is this true, but they echo into the generations that follow us in this life.

Not only are we abandoning God’s original command to mankind (“be fruitful, multiply and fill the earth”) but we’re cutting off our inheritance in future generations and in the age to come at the knees. We live for our own satisfaction, to spend our lives making ourselves significant and renowned, and to fulfill our own dreams. But within two generations, our legacy will be gone. There will be no one to remember our names, or who will pass on the spiritual DNA we imparted. Our legacy will be short and confined to our own self-centered lifetimes. But those who make the short term sacrifices needed to raise many children will reap a rich return in multiplied descendants who accomplish great exploits and who will “welcome them into eternal dwellings” in the age to come. The influence of your decisions will stretch far and wide beyond your imagination.

This is the beauty and divine mandate of the adoption movement. When the world is saying “it’s your life or theirs, you have no other choice”. There will be a church who says “there is another way”. We won’t just say “don’t abort”, we’ll say “give them to us, we’ll help you”. At the same time that we give an alternative to difficulty, murder, and pain, we add to the family of God, His inheritance in the nations, and our own legacy now and in the age to come.

I am proud to be a part of a church known for it’s prolific breeding habits. We are absolutely inundated with children for the size of our congregation. We may not be much to look at now, but if we invest it these young ones wisely, there will be a legacy from this place beyond what we could “ask or imagine”.

For myself, we’ve decided to adopt as a reflection of God’s command to care for orphans. It’s only now I’m beginning to understand the full measure of the glory of God revealed through adoption and child rearing alike.

As I was making my way home from my errand run, I was mulling over the next steps. Looking out on the world and the massive waves of abortion, teen pregnancy, poverty, and orphan crisis, one can begin to feel pretty small. The numbers are so large they make you numb. At Bethany as we think about ideas concerning starting adoption agencies, ministering to young pregnant women, and caring for orphans, you begin to wonder what difference you can really make. What is my contribution of one or two in the face of such staggering need? Will the sacrifice and putting aside of pursuing my own personal gain be worth the investment?

As if by “fate” a little six minute sound clip (link below) came on the radio. Dr. Crawford Loritts was talking about the sacrifices made by his enslaved, illiterate, uneducated, and simple forebears. The unnoticed and seemingly insignificant sacrifices of those simple men made his life and influence for the gospel possible. As Dr. Lorrits wrapped up his talk in tears of gratefulness, I had no choice but to cry right along with the good Doctor. I had my answer.

Dr. Crawford Loritts

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Yesterday was my wife’s birthday. As one of her birthday “presents” she wanted to sit down as a family and pick out a child from the world vision website for us to sponsor financially. She showed our kids the videos about the program. When my little boy, Jude, saw all the sick kids with no toys and food, he cried. When I heard he cried, I cried too. We sat down on the couch to look for a child to sponsor and Jude prayed “Jesus, help us find the kid you want us to help so that your heart won’t be broken anymore” … Geez, you’re killin’ me son!

So we flipped through all the pictures of the young boys in Rwanda who live in areas devastated by AIDS, and we landed on Dieudonne’s picture.  I told them that his name means “God Gives” in french, and everyone said: “that’s him”! Sorry, no pictures allowed for security reasons.

Anyway, you do this kind of thing, and you feel a little good about yourself. A little giving here, a little kindness there, and you know, you feel like you’re “doing your part”.

Well, then I went ahead and did the foolish thing of spending an hour looking at adoption ministry videos for an upcoming event…

God’s been working on me. For that I’m indescribably grateful. He isn’t going to leave me in my hard-hearted and selfish condition. He will “continue the good work” He began in me and see it through to completion. On the other hand, the closer you get to God the more awful and wretched you perceive the darkness in your soul to be. It ain’t pretty.

Specifically, I’ve been deeply and increasingly bothered by my wealth. After spending an evening looking at these kids and the condition of our world I have a hard time feeling good about myself and my meager $35/mth sponsorship program.  Sure, we’re not even as wealthy as most middle class people, but in the grand scope we’re immensely so:

– Having a fridge, roof, and clothes closet puts you in the wealthiest  25% of the world’s population.

– If you make $10,066 per year you are in the top 16% of the world’s wealthiest.

– A net worth of $61,000 puts you in the top 10% of the world’s wealthiest.

– It would cost 13 billion a year to feed the world’s hungry (and there’s plenty of production capability to meet this).

Christians spend annually: 13 billion feeding our pets, 13 billions on diet programs, 17 billion on golfing & boating, 20 billion on soft drinks, 21 billion on cable TV, & 105 billion on eating out

Are you OK with that? I’m not. More importantly, I’m increasingly in fear and trembling that God isn’t either.

And the Lord said, “Who then is the faithful and wise manager, whom his master will set over his household, to give them their portion of food at the proper time? Blessed is that servant whom his master will find so doing when he comes. Truly, I say to you, he will set him over all his possessions.  But if that servant says to himself, ‘My master is delayed in coming,’ and begins to beat the male and female servants, and to eat and drink and get drunk,  the master of that servant will come on a day when he does not expect him and at an hour he does not know, and will cut him in pieces and put him with the unfaithful.

…Everyone to whom much was given, of him much will be required, and from him to whom they entrusted much, they will demand the more. Luke 12: 42-46 &48

Our family is in the process of adopting and I believe that “defending the cause of the fatherless” is an issue the church MUST embrace. But I look around at my surroundings and say, “is it enough”? I look at my fellow American Christian families living in our spacious houses with 2 SUV’s in the driveway and beautiful landscaping. I don’t know, maybe somehow we’re all living sacrificially for God in some way, so I can’t judge. But I doubt it.

Yes, every family that is adopting should be highly commended for their sacrifice in loving the fatherless, but can we stop there as though we’ve “done our part”? Indeed God delights in every generous act of kindness we show to “the least of these my brethren”. In fact, I’m so inspired and thrilled at what groups like “Heartwork” started by The Desperation Band/Desperation Ministry are doing to engage youth in ministering to orphans (I’ve included some of their promo videos below to encourage you after I’m done spitting up my own brokenness on you…)

The question for me is, what is His standard by which I will be judged?

We’ll only spend a small fraction of our lifetime earnings to adopt and parent an orphan. God the Father emptied the storehouse of heaven, allowing his only son, to be mercilessly tortured and bear the full wrath of God for the sin of the world  so he could adopt us into His family. Do we have anything to be proud of in the face of such loving sacrifice? Should we stop and bask in the light of our few good deeds for the day?

Suppose I was in a restaurant eating my dinner. On the other side of the window from me was a man in the street who was emaciated like an Auschwitz inmate and was calling out to me “help me please! I’m dying. I haven’t eaten in weeks.” Instead of helping him, I get up from my table and buy another round of drinks for my friends. We sit back down to enjoy ourselves, and an hour later the man is dead on the street right outside the window. Would that be wrong? Would God bring that up to me when we finally meet face to face? I think you see my point…

I have a hard time looking at my wealth and the wealth of our nation (the wealthiest in the history of mankind) on the one hand, then looking at a fatherless generation that is starving and dying (that we largely ignore) on the other hand and picturing that on the day of judgment God will have nothing to say about that. I’m tired of listening to sermons on money where the preacher always feels compelled to say “now, there’s nothing wrong with having a lot of money….it’s the LOVE of money that is the problem”. I’m tired of people talking about how much our country gives to foreign aid like that somehow absolves them personally. I’m tired of all the old “some people are called to have a lot of wealth in order to…XYZ” arguments.  I’m sorry, but somehow I just fail to imagine God is impressed.

Sure, it’s not for me to say “how much is too much” for anyone, but one thing I am certain of – there comes a point  where we have kept to much of what we have for ourselves, no matter what our “calling” is. And we’d better be sure we know what God’s opinion is on the matter for each one of us. We will give an account for how we used what God entrusted to us.

For me, the fact that my dog has a huge bag of chicken and rice kibble and crystal clean water available to her at all hours while 5 million of God’s children die of starvation every year is simply not OK. How can it be?

It’s not OK, and my selfishness breaks my heart.

If anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need but has no pity on him, how can the love of God be in him? Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth. (1 John 3:16-19)

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